hellibums

"I bet you cut yourself," he says and it takes All of me and more, and there is nothing to take. I laugh and cry a little inside. Die a little more and smile "Of course not." He stares at me and it's like one of those dreams where you're Naked and I want to shove my guts in my mouth and burn in Heaven, rip my scalpel through my thigh, throw my skull at a window and let the Pain in my body overwhelm the pain in my heart. "I'm joking," he says and I think I should feel bad for him, instead I Hate him a little. He's grinning and I think about how I'd love to Carve his face into the Joker. "I know," I say and I hate myself a little, t